June Thoughts

My life is still an ongoing spiral of work, home, eat, binge a show, and going outside in limited occasions. Trying to take a stroll. I've made a conscious effort to improve my social life in the city by trying to converse with like-minded women on an app but unfortunately it is a matter of "when" if I can actually grab coffee with anyone. Although given my (bad) luck with females, I've lowered my expectations and do find comfort in solitude. I realized that lately I've been struggling to talk about things that I like because of how irritated I get when being shut down. I do not mind differences, but it is that quick, snobby dismissal of someone else that irks me. I simply have an affinity toward open-minded individuals but I wonder if that makes me a picky person. I still look forward to getting to know people in the city despite of that. There has to be a platonic term related to being a "hopeless romantic" because I am like that in friendships (hahaha!). I will really try for a friend until I am given reasons not to. I am quite hopeful for lasting relationships.

If there is one thing I am consistent with, it is definitely my skincare routine. Having a 7-step routine may seem too much for some but it really isn't bad. Some people think that women who obsess about skincare and cosmetics are ridiculous. Well, I am proudly ridiculous. The older I get the harder it is to control the facial imperfections that I dislike about myself such as noticeable pores and blemishes (unfortunately, I care about crap like that). I feel that whatever it is I am doing to my skin is working for maintenance. Also, I am an oily skin type so keeping the sebum at bay without totally drying my skin out has been the top of my skincare goals. Also, it is so fun and relaxing to do after a long day. I come home filled with the city's impurities. 

Food has been my source of comfort. I do not consider myself a "foodie" in a way that I want to find facts and details or look for only the "authentic" cuisine. I can't even stand food snobs. I just simply like to eat whatever my palette considers good and fortunately that is a wide variety. I like being introduced to new dishes and appreciating the version of whoever makes them. I feel that I've given some people the impression that I am some sort of food encyclopedia. I love learning about cultures but I am not knowledgeable like that (willing to learn though). 

It is a good thing that I commute to work because I know I should weigh more than I currently am. Wednesdays are for fried pork. 

I finished reading a novel recently and started a new one. At least I have that to look forward to. I've been switching from a classic, contemporary fiction, sometimes historical fiction, and nonfiction. There are four books that I am juggling the same way as I would juggle TV shows. 

I think I've found the right therapist for me. I think it is funny that in my chief complaint I put worry. It's not even about the state of the world but the state of my life, rather. 

Hang in there NYC. Sooner or later, it will be phase 3. Outdoor dining is looking good. Do not lose sight of your goals, if any. Unfortunately, I am officially over with COVID-19. Don't wear a mask in an open area but please value physical distance, carry a mask and wear them when close in proximity around people, and be mindful of stores that require it and abide!